The Ugly

Oh man, there is just something about being physically exhausted that has the ability to bring out the ugliest parts of us. The unsightly human nature. Lord take that out of me. I want it crucified. The human nature is hideous and so selfish, full of pride. I want to reflect Jesus Christ by being humble.

I am often Gomer.

Lord Jesus I want to be your lover. To show you I love you. I don't want to make you feel second fiddle, or take you for granted. If you found the love of your life you would not want to waste one second to always be in their presence. He is the love of your life.
(if you are not familiar with Gomer, read the first few chapters of Hosea. Gomer represents Israel and also us when we are engrafted in God's family.)




Thanx so much Hannah for correcting me :)

¡The LAMBS book of Life!

HALLELUJAH!

I picked up an oldie out of my cd's today. Best decision I've made all day.

Carmen. Does that bring back memories or what?

So here it is...

Take that satan!

I hope your as blessed at this as much as I was or am or more than I was. :)

His blood covered it ALL!
Also if you love to jam this is the other that really blessed me today.

If I put myself in His care we will take the greatest adventure ever!

There is something so special to me in being a woman.

I love how we crave someone to take care of us. Well it is foolish of me to speak for all women. I apologize. I love how vulnerable I can be with my Husband. That is Jesus. 

I love the earthly example of a healthy working union between a man and woman. When the wife can be vulnerable to her husband, the trust she has in him. I have this trust in the Lord and He will never abuse that or lose that trust.

Lately I've been asking the Lord to take me on an adventure.

Adventures are thrilling and the One leading has to have your complete trust and faith.

He is asking me, "Do you trust me?"

No one compares to Him. I don't mean to cut physical husbands down, that is not my intention. For God created the union. But no man on earth could ever compete. Jesus knows my every need before I even speak it. He knows my every thought. He knows my every wish, He formed me for Himself.

O that I would wrap myself up in Him. That His name would be close to my lips at all times. Praise of Him never to cease from my mouth. He WILL be my dwelling place.

Better is one day in your courts. Better is one day in your house, than thousands elsewhere. 

O' Praise Him

So yesterday morning I was at work and I just knew that I needed to press into God further.

      My desire is to pursue him as a man pursuing a woman. God doesn't force himself on us, we have to seek him. He loves it when we seek him, and show Him that we really want Him enough to keep seeking and not just being satisfied when we only know the exterior if Him. 

So I am at work wondering what I can do to see more of Him. I am praying Lord show your manifest presence to me. It isn't a I want to see Him anymore, it is a I need to see Him. Although I do want to see Him as well. :)

And then it hits me.

Psalms 22:3 He inhabits the praises of Israel. In which through adoption I am in that family now. 

So I start praising Him and thanking Him for the wonderful things He has done in my life. 

And you know what?!

He leaned in, and got real close to my voice. Almost like His ear right next to my lips as if I were whispering these praises, and He just couldn't get close enough.                                                            

This is a video of Misty Edwards please take a couple minutes, I think you'll be blessed.  

He is a mystery. We need to search Him out. He is so big! A couple may be married for a lifetime and not fully understand something their spouse does, and this is not a human we are talking about this is GOD!                                                     

these are the lyrics...

You're a mystery like poetry, like a parable, a rhyme or a riddle
You're a mystery wrapped in clouds, shouting so loud
just waiting to be discovered
You're a mystery so intriguing, You're a mystery so inviting

You saved Yourself for the weak, the humble and the meek
Only the hungry dine, only the thirsty drink deep
You saved Yourself for the needy, You saved Yourself for me, yeah!

You're a mystery like poetry, like a parable, a rhyme or a riddle
You're a mystery wrapped in clouds, shouting so loud
just waiting to be discovered

I want to waste my life to search You out, search You out
I want to waste my life to search You out, search You out

I don't want to build castles in the sand
I don't want to live in a fairy tail
I want what's real, the knowledge of You
I will remain forever, remain forever

And I want to waste my life to search You out search You out
I want to waste my life to search You out search You out

It's the glory of God to hide a matter, yeah
And it's the glory of a king to search it out
I wanna search You out
I love the way You hide so I can find You, yeah
I wanna search You out...

temptation

                  The world is CONSTANTLY calling              My flesh seeks only that the pleases temporarily.

      satans minions dangle temptation in front of me.

 :( The sad thing is, is that I get hooked on temptation         SO small.

              And it definitely doesn't settle as well as it went down.          What would I do with GRAND TEMPTATION???                  He knows what we can handle.                             These small Monica fitted temptations. Their purpose for now, are to send me back to an apathetic state.
GODS LOVE FOR US should help us amidst temptation.                                                         ____________________________________________________

As I have posted before of temptation and protecting what you have with the Lord, it is a training a discipline. This is a discipline that does not come with a negative connotation for me. This word discipline is like ROTTING TRASH to most. But when it is attached to protecting my marriage with the Lord I take it up gladly :) like FRESH BAKED CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES, or cookie dough lol:). But this is serious, if you are NOT here trust me your spirit wants to be at a place where discipline is eaten like dessert.  

!Recognize! satan and temptation as a wife recognizes when a beautiful women flirts with her husband. 

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ALSO THE REALIZATION that anything satan can tempt you with is temporary, lost upon death. or even lost shortly after received. Or even you took God of the top priority list for only a taste or a smell that but lasted for a moment. WAKE UP! We not only live for ourselves but for others.

I will even tell on myself, the other night I was sick in bed having a pity party, decided to watch a harmless movie. My friend a muslim calls me in a nervous breakdown thanks be only to God that I was given a great platform to witness to her. When that phone was hung up I realized, I was awoken from mild apathy. I said to myself, "Monica how stupid are you, this movie is a waste of precious time when I need instead to be always preparing myself to be always ready for share the good news of the gospel."

i have this strong desire to fiercely protect 
what i have with the Lord.
that nothing shall distract me. i want to be jealous over Him. in the same way He is jealous over me. i wish i could've been in the garden. i  wonder what the presence of the Lord was like. i want to learn to live with the fact that His presence is always with me.

i'm constantly striving to switch my the reality of this worldly realm with the spiritual realm.
i want this world to be like a dream in that i realize on a twenty-four seven basis is ending upon our full awakening in death.